Winner of the River Teeth Literary Nonfiction Prize
Disequilibria: Meditations on Missingness is a hybrid memoir that recounts the 1982 disappearance of the author's stepfather, James Edward Lewis, a pilot and Vietnam veteran. Recounting his family's experiences in searching for answers, Lunday interrogates the broader cultural and conceptual responses to the phenomenon of missingness by connecting his stepfather's case to other true-life disappearances as well as those portrayed in fiction, poetry, and film. In doing so Disequilibria explores the transience in modern life, considering the military-dependent experience, the corrosive effects of war, and the struggle to find closure and comfort as time goes by without answers.
Finding; Understanding
Doubles
Oracles
Relics
The Asymptote
Parallax
Nomads and Exiles
In the Cloud
The Middle Distance
Face of Shadows
Uroboros
The Sun and I
Hitchhike
Sayaboury
I Am the Grass
The Boy Scout Handbook
Circles
The Verge
Vita Activa
Disequilibria
A Beautiful Death
China
The Swerve
A Feral Presence
Dark Heart
The Vortex
Flitcraft's Folly
Wakefields
The Circumambient Self
Subterranean
Spirit Radios
Lightness
Foolish Dreams
Old Soldiers Never Die
Worldness
Flying on Fumes
July 3, 1969
The Edge
Desert Dreams
The Return
Acknowledgments
Notes