Winner of the River Teeth Literary Nonfiction Prize
Disequilibria: Meditations on Missingness is a hybrid memoir that recounts the 1982 disappearance of the author's stepfather, James Edward Lewis, a pilot and Vietnam veteran. Recounting his family's experiences in searching for answers, Lunday interrogates the broader cultural and conceptual responses to the phenomenon of missingness by connecting his stepfather's case to other true-life disappearances as well as those portrayed in fiction, poetry, and film. In doing so Disequilibria explores the transience in modern life, considering the military-dependent experience, the corrosive effects of war, and the struggle to find closure and comfort as time goes by without answers.
Robert Lunday is a professor of English at Houston Community College. He is also author of Mad Flights and Gnome.
"With its arresting catalogue of anecdotes and passages illustrating missingness, Disequilibria captures what it's like to become obsessed with a mystery, as well as what it feels like to get trapped in its labyrinth. But most compellingly, it teaches us that if the grief-stricken can't find out the truth, they can attain solace in the still-present love for those who are gone."--Rigoberto González, author of Abuela in Shadow, Abuela in Light
"This haunting, engrossing, superbly written memoir is full of revelations and mysteries: a kind of prose epic of the missing. Chockful of Americana, it is also marbled with uncanny literary references: Robert Lunday seems to have read everything and put it to good use. His intelligence makes this book shine."--Phillip Lopate, author of A Mother's Tale
Finding; Understanding Doubles Oracles Relics The Asymptote Parallax Nomads and Exiles In the Cloud The Middle Distance Face of Shadows Uroboros The Sun and I Hitchhike Sayaboury I Am the Grass The Boy Scout Handbook Circles The Verge Vita Activa Disequilibria A Beautiful Death China The Swerve A Feral Presence Dark Heart The Vortex Flitcraft's Folly Wakefields The Circumambient Self Subterranean Spirit Radios Lightness Foolish Dreams Old Soldiers Never Die Worldness Flying on Fumes July 3, 1969 The Edge Desert Dreams The Return